Today I would like to tell the story of how this tattoo came to be. I got the idea of the wording from someone’s tumblr url to be honest, can’t remember who it was now and I never told them about it, but thank you for the inspiration. And the feather is pretty self explanatory if you are an Evil Regal, a symbol of hope.
For those of you who watch Once Upon A Time and have an inkling of what Swan Queen is you will understand it completely. I am a swan queen shipper and an Evil Regal so this tattoo holds so much meaning. Some may think it is silly to get a tattoo of a fandom you belong to, but before watching OUAT or finding the Swen fandom I was a very lost and hopeless person, this show has very much changed my life and helped make me a stronger person today. Along with Lana Parrilla who has been a light in so much of my darkness. Without any of it I would probably not be alive today. Swen is something completely different then anything I have ever been a part of. Some of the most generous, kind, and loving people I have ever had the honor of talking to and creating with. Even when I am way older and I think back to such a time I will forever be grateful to have stumbled upon something so magnificent. And even thinking about being an elderly lady is a huge step for me, a time when I think of a future self is not something I ever did, because I was so low I thought about ways to kill myself every single day and that has completely changed and I am now seven months clean from self-harm. I see a future now. Maybe not one I dreamed of, but a future nonetheless, where scars will be faded and the past will only be a journey that I overcame.
For those who have never even heard of Once Upon A Time or Swan Queen for that matter, this tattoo definitely has double meaning, even for myself. I see it as an inspiration of hope. That something so dark and broken(an evil queen/villains/anything of darkness) can find their light(a swan/heroes/anything good). And that something light and beautiful could love something so dark and ugly is something very important that I like to keep in mind. Everything isn’t as black and white on the surface as it appears, we all have our stuff to deal with and when you find the one love who takes that stuff and sees you and doesn’t care and loves you anyways and takes all your stuff and loves it to because it is a part of you, that is what this is. Even an equality of love, love is love, no matter what and to discriminate because you see it differently should never be seen as the right way. Love is equal. Love conquers barriers. To find that love and hope within it is something I hope we all find one day and for me I got this tattoo to remind me of that if I find myself falling again. You are never too far gone, remember that, even at your lowest of lows, believe me I’ve been there and here I am saying things like future and love and hope and finding those things for myself. It is possible.